2012 was a pretty freakin’ awesome year. I am quite happy looking back at all the changes, adventures, and growth that occurred. So needless to say, I am super pumped for 2013.
There is a local church here that does this program every year. Their pastor wrote a book about it that’s available now. For 2012, My One Word was “Wachsen” – or “Grow.” (Wachsen being the German form of the word.) You can read about my outlook for this word here.
At first, I couldn’t find a word for 2013. Usually by Thanksgiving I have found a word or have an idea….not this time. I knew the Lord would give me a word when the time was right and this past week I figured it out.
It really does tie in with so much in my life right now. While I haven’t blogged much about it because it is a very private thing, I struggle with seasons of depression/anxiety. It got particularly bad this year, reaching it’s peak in the fall; while I’m not currently being treated for it, I’m pretty good about keeping it in check, but this time it seemed to escalate more than just the casual flare ups that happen every so often. While this flavor of the disease I have is very mild compared to what others struggle with, it is still a heavy weight on my mind. By using the word, Today, I am only going to focus on Today. The moment. The here and now. Even Jesus said, “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” (Matthew 6:34)
This goes hand in hand with constant obsession with the future. What will happen? Will this happen? Will that happen? What if I….? What if…..and then….what if….what if….? I sometimes get so carried away that anxiety via my imagination projects the most obtuse futures; nothing is accomplished. Only the Lord knows and His will is the only thing that will bring me peace. And so, today again. Just today. Like the quiet time I have nearly every day, may my life be lead by the scriptures and not my own listless thoughts. “Today his Scripture is fulfilled in your hearing.” (Luke 4:21)
It goes hand in hand with my word from last year, Grow. Growth requires things every day. Watering plants when I see they need watered. Taking care of things the moment they happen and not procrastinating — whether that be some living thing that needs my attention (a garden) or a loved one needs a kind word in the moment (I sometimes tend to “wait it out.”). Today. Taking the moment, finishing things as they come and so they don’t get cluttered up in my head, desk drawer, kitchen, car, or station at work.
Last year I felt that death would strike: and it did. It hit pretty close to home in 2012 a few times. This year I feel it will be more about life. I know of several couples who are going to start a family this year. I know The General and I have some decisions to make this year about our futures. Today. One day at a time. It astounds me that’s how the Lord designed it. I want to slow down this year and savor the sweetness of every moment; with friends, riding a wave, sitting on the beach, getting lost in a novel, amazing moments with my husband, the laughter that will fill my house this year, enjoying a glass of wine, trying something new, and oh! The adventures the Lord has planned for me this year. “Give us this day our daily bread.” (Matthew 6:11)
Es ist Heute. It is today.